Words have always come easy for me. Whether spoken or written, I was able to convey my thoughts to others. Today I have no words.
There are so many that I feel the need to say "Thank you" to that I can not begin to list. From the time our cry for help went out, we have been overwhelmed by your support.
Hundreds, maybe even thousands, of people prayed for my precious little girl. Churches, schools, neighbors, friends and even strangers fell to their knees and opened their hearts. Many who had experienced the loss of a child offered their support even while reliving their own suffering. I have no words express our gratitude.
As I write this I am in darkness. I am an empty shell. My mind is on autopilot. I function, but only by habit. The moment Kristen left us, my soul and spirit were ripped out by the roots. My heart shattered.
I have three other beautiful grandchildren and a wonderful family that I know I must carry on for. My love for them is no less than it was for Kris.
Many have assured me that with time I will learn to endure. That life will go on and there are many good days ahead.
This grief that i am now in has enveloped me. Every thought of her brings me tears. I look around me ans see her angel tracks everywhere. I expect every sound in the house to be her.
All my memories of Kristen are good. all my dreams for her are gone.She has left a void in my life that can not be filled. Kristen was a special gift. She grew up in my lap. She was love and joy. She was innocence and purity. She was my baby and granddaughter. She was my best friend and constant companion. I cannot imagine my life without her.
These may not be the words I should be writing. They may not be the words you want to read. Hopefully you will be able to interpret them as they are intended.
They are all I can offer you at this time.